Can I do that??
Is it possible?
Will I succeed??
But..I miss you..
Still..I've promised...
Hey you...Don't tell anyone...but
I love you...
Words from my heart... But somethings just can't be described by words...
Oct 27, 2011
Oct 12, 2011
Just something that I've been wanting to say...
This is what I want to say to the person who had been with me for 3 years-not any more.
Dulu...kite start as friends...saya ingat lagi mase kite mule-mule kenal,awak dah ade awek.
Saya x kesah pn...sbb saye nak kawan jer...tiap kali kite msg,awak wat saye macam awek awak je.
Awak suruh saye jgn kasar sangat,awak nak dengar saye cakap lembut2...jgn gune aku kau...
Chow pn xley...saya duduk asrama..xley bawak HP..so awak pn rase sunyi walaupun awak dah ade awek..
tiap2 kli awak ade masalah dengan awek awak,awak gtwu sy...sy jd tmpt awak bergantung..satu ari,awak pts dgn awek awak..awak sdeyh sangat..sy risau sangat kat awak. ..awak jatuh aty kat sy..walaupn sy panas baran..awak suke jugak..sy igt awak mnx sy jadi awek awak mse hari raye kedue tahun 2006..sy serba salah sbb sy xnk kapel..tp sy terime jugak...sy pk,ape salahnye mencube....tp sy selalu col awak...tanye kabar...susah taw...bkn sye sorg je nak gune public phone tu...ramai lagi bdak2 len yang nak gune phone tu..tp..awak xpenah pk sy usehe nak b'ckp dgn awak...sy pun dah malas nak tulis sbb nnti wat skt ati....tapi..terima kasih sbb jage sy tige thn...semoge awak bahagie hingga ke anak cucu dgn die...n_n
Saya x kesah pn...sbb saye nak kawan jer...tiap kali kite msg,awak wat saye macam awek awak je.
Awak suruh saye jgn kasar sangat,awak nak dengar saye cakap lembut2...jgn gune aku kau...
Chow pn xley...saya duduk asrama..xley bawak HP..so awak pn rase sunyi walaupun awak dah ade awek..
tiap2 kli awak ade masalah dengan awek awak,awak gtwu sy...sy jd tmpt awak bergantung..satu ari,awak pts dgn awek awak..awak sdeyh sangat..sy risau sangat kat awak. ..awak jatuh aty kat sy..walaupn sy panas baran..awak suke jugak..sy igt awak mnx sy jadi awek awak mse hari raye kedue tahun 2006..sy serba salah sbb sy xnk kapel..tp sy terime jugak...sy pk,ape salahnye mencube....tp sy selalu col awak...tanye kabar...susah taw...bkn sye sorg je nak gune public phone tu...ramai lagi bdak2 len yang nak gune phone tu..tp..awak xpenah pk sy usehe nak b'ckp dgn awak...sy pun dah malas nak tulis sbb nnti wat skt ati....tapi..terima kasih sbb jage sy tige thn...semoge awak bahagie hingga ke anak cucu dgn die...n_n
Aku telah membuat keputusan..my heart is missing.
Lately,bloog aku nie aku tulis dalam bahase melayu jer...sebab..entah la...hmm...
Dalam kesedihan hati yang merosakkan segala tumpuan yang cuba aku berikan pada hidup yang serba fana ini,aku telah membuat satu keputusan yang akan mengubah masa depan aku...
I'm moving on...funny that I've rehearsed the line "you don't have to be with me anymore" for so many times. I wanted to say "I don't love you anymore" so that you will feel better but I can't lie. I can't stop myself from crying when I said that because it hurts a lot. I know I've promised I'll try looking for somebody that I will love. In your words-give myself another chance-but it is not that easy. It is never easy. I can try caring for another guy but I know I can never love another. I'll try,just like I've promised you. But there's no assurance that it will succeed.
Despite all that, I whole heartedly(if that is even a word) pray that you will find your happiness and the one that you love-even though that person is not me.ever. I love you so much that I want you to be happy. And if you're not happy with me then I'd rather let you go. I know you will think I'm so pathetic for doing this but who cares. I only have 1 love. And you took it cruelly and not give it back. I'm tired. I had to much pain already that if you cause more of it,it doesn't make any difference.
I've realized that I had forgotten that I have to love Him more than I love you. I'm a weak slave that needs more training at heart which is going to be problem because it is missing. My heart....is missing...Still...I have no choice...I chose to let you go...so I had to live with the consequences...I'm learning to accept that I had to let you go.
Dalam kesedihan hati yang merosakkan segala tumpuan yang cuba aku berikan pada hidup yang serba fana ini,aku telah membuat satu keputusan yang akan mengubah masa depan aku...
I'm moving on...funny that I've rehearsed the line "you don't have to be with me anymore" for so many times. I wanted to say "I don't love you anymore" so that you will feel better but I can't lie. I can't stop myself from crying when I said that because it hurts a lot. I know I've promised I'll try looking for somebody that I will love. In your words-give myself another chance-but it is not that easy. It is never easy. I can try caring for another guy but I know I can never love another. I'll try,just like I've promised you. But there's no assurance that it will succeed.
Despite all that, I whole heartedly(if that is even a word) pray that you will find your happiness and the one that you love-even though that person is not me.ever. I love you so much that I want you to be happy. And if you're not happy with me then I'd rather let you go. I know you will think I'm so pathetic for doing this but who cares. I only have 1 love. And you took it cruelly and not give it back. I'm tired. I had to much pain already that if you cause more of it,it doesn't make any difference.
I've realized that I had forgotten that I have to love Him more than I love you. I'm a weak slave that needs more training at heart which is going to be problem because it is missing. My heart....is missing...Still...I have no choice...I chose to let you go...so I had to live with the consequences...I'm learning to accept that I had to let you go.
Oct 2, 2011
Perginya hati yang lara...
Angin malam bagai meniup lembut api yang membakar hati yang kesedihan dihimpit pilu. Titisan air mata seakan berlumba-lumba menuruni lekuk pipiku yang sedia basah. Gugusan bintang dilangit seakan memahami kesyahduan hati ini yang menjerit resah dan meminta untuk diselamatkan. Terduduk aku disudut ruang gelap di atas bumbung tempat aku meluahkan kegembiraan satu ketika dulu. Ya Allah, hanya Engkau yang mengetahui betapa hancurnya hati ini akibat bahana si dia. Aku tidak sanggup lagi menghadapi kesedihan ini. Hanya Engkau tempat aku menggantung harapan ya Allah. Kau bantulah hambaMu yang serba lemah dan tidak sempurna ini dalam menghadapi liku-liku hari yang mendatang dengan hati ini yang sudah tidak mampu menyayangi yang lain. Kau berilah aku kekuatan untuk terus setia dan bersabar. Ya Allah,you are my only hope and my only God. If these are Your obstacles for me,then I accept it with open arms. I know that I can always count on You. So ya Allah, guide me to the right path and don't You let me go astray after you gave me guidance. Amen.
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